September 4, 2014 I started an all liquid diet and had a weight of 362. My surgery was scheduled for September 18, and I had to endure absolutely a 1000 calorie a day liquid diet. I am a teacher and the first thing I noticed by the 2nd day was a dramatic decrease in energy, oh and if I didn't mention it before, I am a type 1 diabetic, so you can only imagine the havoc the diet was playing on my blood sugars. By the 6th day my teaching team was worried about me because I was pale and lethargic. If anyone understands the amount of energy it takes to teach, especially elementary age students, I wasn't sure I was going to make it to the surgery without finding a nutritional source to gain the energy I needed. What I did to keep going was lay it all down to God, and pray for his strength, and wouldn't you know it, God was gracious and he got me through providing the energy to keep going!
September 18, 2014, the day was here, and I was more scared than I could imagine or share with my family and friends. I woke up the morning of the surgery and thought about what exactly brought me to needing a drastic surgery like this, I was doubting, self loathing, and blaming myself. There are things in my childhood that definitely contributed to my weight problem, however, there are things in my body that were out of my control i.e. type 1 diabetes and thyroid disease, but even with those extenuating factors I still blamed myself. This is something that is a work in progress, as am I and many others in this world
To be continued...
