7 weeks post op

So I am 7 weeks out and 49 pounds down!  I saw my surgeon last week, and his reaction to me was, "you're weight loss is not as much as I expected"...WHAT?  This made me feel like a complete failure and I left his office with a sense of "Why did I have this major life changing surgery?, and What do I do now?"  He said that to his credit I was his first type 1 diabetic and he really didn't know what the future will bring, that we will have to see in a year or two.  I spent about 15 minutes being very angry and completely down on myself.

Then...I said to myself, "He does not dictate my fate, in this process!"  The Lord is my guide and I believe he believes in me.  So, when I got home I did some research on the internet with Type 1 Diabetics and gastric bypass.  What I found was two doctors back east who are finding great success in this surgery being an amazing tool for obese type 1 diabetics.  I called my diabetic nurse and she was livid and said that she would bring this to the chief of endocrinology, and they would help me in this process.  I know in my heart of hearts that this was the one and only answer for my weight loss, and some ignorant surgeon will not make me a failure.

Is it worth it?

So it has been a month since I have posted to this blog, and to be honest I am wondering...is it worth it?  I am a private person, and thought this would be helpful to myself and others, and yet is it?  No one reads it, and my best friend is really the only one seeing it, and she knows everything about me, and doesn't need a blog to understand me, relate, or be helped by it.  But, here is an update, for what it is worth:

At 2 weeks out from surgery (surgery date of Sept 18)  my surgeon said all was going as expected.  I am on soft foods, and gaining strength all the time.  

At 6 weeks out, my nutritionist called to give me the go ahead for regular food, and it is a struggle to get in 1000 calories a day, as well as the fluids needed.  I am a work in progress, but with a never say die attitude!! Exercise is my biggest challenge right now, because of the lack of energy needed.  I am doing it about 2x a week, but want more.  Another note, when I look in the mirror I still see the 372 pound woman I was even though at this point I am at 40 pound loss...I can see where anorexics fall into that terrible disease.  The one thing that brings me to reality is the bagginess of my clothing, so I know I am losing!